long time no post

man, it's been a few months since my last post! sorry about that. not much has been going on, so i haven't had much to talk about! hopefully that'll start changing soon, though.

you may have already noticed since it happened about a month ago, but i added a currently playing page to my site! i thought it'd be a fun way to share my video game progress. i need to update it though, since… drumroll… I FINISHED HUNDRED LINE!!!!!! well, sort of; i don't have everyone's bond events done, nor have i finished upgrading everything, but i got all 100 endings!!! i'm so fucking hyped about it, you guys. it took over 130 hours to do it, but i did it! i will now die for the hundred line - last defense academy. i've started replaying one of my favorite routes, which i first finished near the very start of my adventures with this game.

speaking of hundred line, i've started writing fanfic again! after artemis reminded me i don't have to post what i write, i was freed from the burden of perfectionism. i do like posting my works, don't get me wrong, but over the years i've started getting more in my head about other people's opinions. it's harder to share with a wide audience these days. for a while i was even having a hard time just roleplaying with my friends, though luckily i've been feeling better about that the past few months. i think the fact that motivation is harder to come by than it was when i was a teen has been messing with me a bit, too. when i was a teenager, i wrote new total drama fics constantly. i always had new ideas! nowadays, it's not quite as easy. i'm a much different person now, though. i'm a much stronger writer than i was as a kid (or at least, i hope so!) but i'm also much more worried about other people's opinions. sigh… oh well. i just love creating, and i want to do it more!

my lack of motivation has been creeping into all aspects of my life, actually. i've gotten better about it, but for a while there i was still spending most of my time on youtube. i'm starting to just allot time for me to indulge in hobbies. i set a timer for 30 minutes and work on something, and if i want to keep going when the timer stops, i can, but otherwise i've done something that day and i feel a little better about myself! spirit city has been a huge help with that, since it provides some non-distracting ambience and has a built-in timer. i actually have it open as i write this blog post! i've been loving the new garden dlc.

i want to start working on shrines again, but writing for fanfics is taking priority at the moment. i definitely need to make a shrine for yugamu omokage, my favorite hundred line character and new favorite character overall. i've even been making tons of picrews of him lol. i got obsessed with photocards for a little bit and i bought one of him + a cute holder to put it in. i also bought a binder to put EVEN MORE PHOTOCARDS in, but i haven't bought any just yet. money's a little tight since i have to pay for my last class at my current school.

speaking of that class, it starts tomorrow! it's sql programming, which is pretty cool. i don't care too much about sql since i'm not a database guy, but it's still good to know. after i finish it, i'll have my AAS! i'm super excited about that.

in other news, i've reconnected with my dad. it's really weird seeing him again after not having him in my life at all for almost six years, but i think he's really changed for the better. he even… apologized for how he treated me as a kid? which is crazy. i didn't think parents did that. i've seen him twice so far this year, and sometime soon i think i'll be going over for dinner and to meet his new girlfriend. it's really nice to see how much he's changed.

well, i think that's all for this post. i'm gonna try setting aside some time for writing soon! with any luck, i'll have a fic finished soon. even if i don't put any up on ao3, i might put them in the fanfic section on my site. i'd like to use that more!